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2:56 a.m. - 2001-09-06 But continue to scream and pound on the door Shout to be unleashed out upon the world Unleashing the rage, emotions unfurled Maddening thoughts I no longer control Penetrating confusion right down to the soul Who can live with these thoughts on their mind No way out, I�m lost, no solution to find. To live here in solitude, pessimistic attitude Living the life of the poor minded and crude Alone in the dark I slit my mental wrists The blood spilling out just makes me more pissed I cant live the life I was living anymore Now while they hound me and cry at the door To be let out, released, unleashed I�ll have no peace till the screaming has ceased Running rampant thoughts around my head Straining to hear what the whispers have said Lock me up, imprison me, bring me my bread My water, my mental freedom, bring me the dead Shutting myself out from reality If I believed in God, I�d bow down and pray But why return to the one that first betrayed My love and my trust and my emotional waste The blood on my tongue leaves a bitter taste I�m confused, I�m lost, I really have no idea what the future is going to hold for me. Everything is so fucked up right now and I�m grasping at straws because everything is so congested I can barely breathe. I feel like I�m drowning, I�ve been ignoring the things I should be paying attention to and focusing on things that I shouldn�t be, the deaths that have happened, I can�t seem to get over this hump, this mourning, usually I don�t get like this. I don�t know. Hmm�.Thoughts as bloody as the aftermath it creates. �I am a calm human being� he chuckled softly to himself�the knife dropped down with a soft clang on the soft carpet. �That was my moment of Zen�, how ironic he mused as the lifeblood flowed from his wrists. He sat down in his favorite recliner and turned on the television, the last sound he heard was the laugh track from old Brady Bunch reruns. TV land does have it�s uses after all. I don�t know, I guess I�ll figure it all out. I�m just dealing with some heavy shit. All you people are just going to have to bear with me. This would be so much easier if�well forget it. <3 Night Kids Dan
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