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9:50 p.m. - 2002-02-23 Thoughts are kindling, on a night like this.. Dreaming of your tender kiss... Thoughts are streaming, on a night like this.. Emotions spinning, thoughts are swirled.. Letting loose a lovers quarrel with the world.. I can not let myself hesitate... Hence the chances dissapate.. Struggling with anticipation.. Hard to keep my concentration... I want you in my arms tonight.. All these feelings, just feel right.. I swear to fucking God, I did not apprentice with Dr. Seuss...I swear...really, I didn't... My writing has gone right down the shitter.. Oh well..I have a feeling i'll get my mojo back in say....36 hours ? Yes...that's it..Just need the proper inspiration... Love's a good one.. And I feel it now..but it all becomes reality in....36 hours.. I leave Monday morning..to drive from Upstate NY, once again, cross country, and although the same as the first two times my end result will be in Vegas, I will be driving there with a short stop in California, to feel love like it has never been felt before. I'm in love, and it feels so good I don't even want to tell anyone about it, I don't want to share it, but I can't help but tell everyone.. I don't know what's happening to me, but I like it a lot. It's like being drunk 24 hours a day...there's a nice metaphor...I'll embroider it on my pillow and send it to my mother.. She's a fucking bitch anway. God I hate everything... Well...not everything ;) OK, that's enough ranting for now, i'll keep updating this thing until I leave, I have a lot I want to say, get off my chest, share, but i'm not into it right now, my mind is all muddled, I have plans, and worries, and anticipations, and dreams coming true all around me...and although it's the proper inspiration..it's not the greatest of enviorments..not yet.. I probably won't be able to write anything on the trip, but i'll write it, and upload it when I get there... If I die somewhere on the road... Put "Such is life" on my tombstone. <3 Night kids <3
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